well, it has been 270 days, working my ass off, toiling, OT-ing and driving meself insane to the wall!!
tough... really tough... but hey, there's nothing i havent or cant take anymore lah.. come what may and i will cruise along it!
chambering is truly an eye opener, eventhough its just supposed to be a training period.. i felt lucky in the sense that i was being thrown work after work. i suppose its coz ppl trust in me and believed that i can perform.... although being continuosly and constantly being thrown work at, i m surprised by my own ability to actually absorb and take in that amount of work.. this is smth totally new for me.. i can actually really juggle and multi task actual legal work! like in quadruple at one time.. totally cool...
i felt luckier in another sense, whereby i met my two nakamis... one known as geeky gal and one known as seriously unfrenly chap.. who would hav thought i can turn them around into sampatnessities and the best thing, u put 3 of us together at any one time, at any nook and corner, be assured that we will ketawa terbahak bahak not giving a shit whats happening around us... we will just do our thing.. our bahaking shocks me.. same ol joke told many times also we can laugh like gila babi siao one...
aih, shit.. im missing them... u know, u guys are like my shining stars, making me happy and fuzzy and warm inside.. for a while, my problems and emoness all melt far far away into the shooting stars... its better than having a bf! honest lor! without u guys, i would meltout like aluminium.... become a cecair tak berguna... aish.... sob.. i just wana say, thanks for sticking up with me throughout the good and sucky times... i really really appreciate it-more than words can say... u guys literally light up my life throughout the 9 months..
my mind is running a gazillion miles per second now... all the memories buzzing through my head.. how to sleep la, its 2.20am now.. im as wide awake as chimpanzi.. it didnt hit me that today is my last day till a couple of hours just now... was runnung around office handing over stuff and talking to partners and lawyers and seckies... BUT now, i felt like damn hollow, albeit happy of the new found freedom.. somehow its just not right.. it felt weird, like unwilling to accept the fact that i wont be working with u guys anymore, sitting merely a slap away and talking at the top of our lungs, not giving two fuckcios of the people around us.. its just great.. and i already miss that.. as much as i loathe the work sometimes, but the whole working ambience that we created was great, something im sure CA has never had before, ever! and now i wont be a part of that anymore and i miss that... oh, how i wish we could work together and be colleagues forever ever and ever..
this is from me to u guys:
learning can be
overwhelming sometimes
very much so
especially evolved from within
mind and emotions
yielding and unyielding
never wanting to let go
always looking
knocking doors upon doors in the heart
always seeking
memories from the past and present
i am indeed missing
such good times we have had...
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